I'm in a funk. With everything. I know it because absolutely everything bothers me. I want to work out with Carl and get annoyed that I have to drive and that I have to go when someone can watch my baby. I want to work on the magazine and get annoyed that I have to clean my house. I want to clean my house and get annoyed that I have to work on the magazine.
Definitely a funk. It's like I"m hitting my maximum time limit of interest on several things at once. I figured I'd hit a burnout with the gym around six weeks (yep), this is the longest I've stayed home as a mom and although not the longest I've nursed, it's the same time I stopped nursing my second child. I want to stop nursing and I don't, I want to work out with Carl and I don't, I want to stay home as a mom and I don't. Right now I can't even please myself.
I worked out today--two hours of karate and then a workout at home. I worked out on the Bowflex, did some reps with the wheel, and looked up some excercises for these groovy new ankle weights I bought. I'm tired, I'm sweaty, and I get grouchy when I burn gas for a workout when I can do so much at home. Some people don't work out if they stay home. I work out all the time at home. That's not my weight problem.
I do work out harder with Carl. He pushes my limits past what I would ever do. I know that. I feel better after working out with Carl, but I'm still in a funk about it today. Who knows when I'll be out of this. It's not just Carl, it's everything. Everything's bothering me right now.
And, no, I do not have pms. If I had pms, I would have called it that and not a funk.
Anyway, now I'm bothered by blogging. I need to take a shower and put on something other than sweats and a t-shirt. See you later.
- Christine on the Edge
- I write and do the layout for The Edge Magazine in the Uintah Basin. I also teach karate at a boarding school. Man, my life is good!
2 comments:
I've so been there, Christine. Totally know what you're going through. I will tell you that Carl is missing you though. And Michelle and I are having fun when we workout together, so let us know what we can do to help. Sounds like you're doing fine on your own, but still...we're here for ya.
I LOVE YOU!!!! I could tell that you have been in a funk the last few weeks. I think it is also the Holiday let downs. I TOTALLY HAD THAT, actually still do, but I think you are doing awesome. I am just one of those that won't work out like I should if I do it at home. That's why I have always totally admired you for what you can get done! So once again I will say I LOVE YOU!!!!
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